Just when you're feeling down, God sends in a life preserver to keep you afloat.

So I've been feeling down lately. It just feels like I've been swimming from underwater, holding my breath, trying to get to the top. But all I see is the sun shining in and I can't get to it. I feel like everyone around me seems to be accomplishing all the things I am striving for. Each day there is a new piece of good news for someone else, or I see something regarding business that makes me wonder.... am I doing something wrong? Well a funny story last night brought out all my frustrations.. I'd like to share that story, and then tell you about the life preserver sent my way this morning.

So last night, dh and I are in bed watching tv. He says. "I don't want to go to work tomorrow." I respond. "I never want to go to work." Then he says, "How about we send Roxy and Spike in our place". Now... we own two boston terriers that have the most hysterical personalities. So of course, we let our imaginations run rampant and discuss what would happen if it were really the case. "Could you picture Spike driving to work in the jeep?" He says. "No, he'd crash because he'd be too busy looking out all the windows and sticking his head out for air! Roxy would have to drive." We talk about what they would do at each of our jobs. Now mind you at this point we are hysterically, can't breathe laughing. I've got tears pouring out of my eyes and I can feel the recent frustrations just uncontrollably coming out of my eyes in the form of tears. Then dh tops it off by saying "Know why I picked Spike to switch places with you?" I said, "No, why?" He said, "Because he spends the day in the crate and Roxy gets free run of the house!" Again, laughing hysterically.

It was a laugh and cry that was much needed. I woke up this morning feeling a little better, but still constantly thinking about what I need to do to turn things around for myself. Then God sent in my life preserver. I logged in to Etsy to find a sale. And she decided to purchase two items. I had tweeted about a 20% discount to my 10th sale. She told me she didn't want the discount. She truly was a Godsend to start my day off on a positive note. The well known prayer is something I say often: God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can. And the wisdom to know the difference. There are certain things I'd like right now, that I have no control over. I need to accept that and move forward knowing that things will change when they are meant to change for me. Giving up that control is the hardest thing for me. There are things that I can control (my business) and I need to focus on those things to make it better. One step at a time.... And I will. It's always easier said than done. But I am making an honest effort to change that thought process.

Please make sure you stop by this shop of Molly's at Uniqueartpendants on Etsy. She has a phenomenal shop! http://uniqueartpendants.etsy.com and is a PLEASURE to do business with!!

Happy Wednesday all!!

I'm walking for a cure over night

Over the years I have always tried to do things for good causes. An important cause to me is finding a cure for cancer. I'd like to share my reasons with you.

When I was 19, I experienced my first loss of someone close. My best friend's mother passed away from Lung Cancer. It was devastating to experience death for the first time like that. But we've always tried to do something in memory of her.

January 18, 2006: My good friend Jessica had a lump removed from her breast on her 28th birthday. She had found it while nursing her 8 month old son. She underwent chemo and radiation, and lost her hair. Par for the course I guess. She was considered clear and free and had hair growing back by the time our engagement party happened in November of that year. While she was recovering, her 31 year old sister also noticed a tumor and started her own battle with cancer. Jessica chose the medical route for treatment, Amy chose the natural route. Jess miraculously became pregnant with her second son. While pregnant her sister Amy lost her battle with cancer in June 2007. She gave birth to her beautiful son on August 28, 2008. Jessica's hair was all grown back, she was healthy! Dealing with the loss of her sister was enough to deal with. She started having pains in her neck that kept worsening. When Gavin was 8 weeks old, Jessica's cancer had returned. This time already in her lymph nodes. I will never forget the day I took her for her brain scan. I drove her, helped her with the kids, and went home. It was a rainy day and I was off of work so I could go to a wedding down the shore. I got a call 20 minutes after being home. It was Jessica. She was crying telling me she had cancer in her brain and she was going to die. I lost it and cried with her. I told her we were going to stay positive, and not give up yet. And that's just what she did. She fought and FOUGHT HARD right to the end. She died 2 months later on December 21, 2007. Six months after her own sister's passing and one month before her 30th birthday. By the time she passed, the breast cancer had spread through her organs and down her spinal fluid. I remember spoon feeding her root beer floats because that's what she wanted even though she could barely get the words out. I remember telling her how much I loved her. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss Jessica. SHE is the reason I do what I do. She is the butterfly in my life.

So you may ask... why am I walking over night? Well I am bringing my team Friends With Angels to the Relay for Life of Montville. The theory of this event is that people with cancer live with it 24 hours a day. So by walking over night, it is symbolic that we won't sleep for a cure. What people affected by this illness go through is just incredible. Walking and raising money is the LEAST I can do to help.

If you are interested in making a donation, you can go to the following link. Any gift is a generous gift. I am forever grateful for the continued support in my life.

http://main.acsevents.org/goto/bobbi.tomalo

My team is also hosting a bowling fundraiser. We are looking for sponsors who would like to sponsor lanes! Lanes are $45 and lanes will have a sign posted recognizing each sponsor. The event is this weekend the 31st. If anyone is interested in sponsoring a lane and having their business advertised, please feel free to reach out to me asap. Thanks!